today is on fire

back at it....

2007-01-20T17:19:40Z

for some reason i felt compelled to write again..and after being quite upset that on firefox my page looks like poo but in explorer it still looks good. maybe because i'm taking web design this semester and want to rip off my old ideas. who knows..but I hope all is well with everyone... it has been awhile since I've written.

Spring break was sublime

2006-03-20T00:16:17Z

So the whole crew from New York made a good road trip down to Myrtle Beach to stay with me and my friends at a dirt cheap motel on the strip. Carrena, Mike, Kyle, Alyssa, Chad, Megan, Meghan McC, and I had a jolly good time. Aside the fact that we were almost kicked out of the motel for Conroy and Kyle throwing pool furniture into the pool and the gold toothed maids harrasing me and trying to hustle me into tipping them for, um, a less than par cleaning service. I only recall one day of getting toliet paper and zero days of a full cleaned room. Conroy got her nose pierced from a complete idiot and we then had to find a guy with piercings in a random shop who was really sweet and gave her advice and some new rings. There was a real world feeling goin on with the rare drunk drama and living with 3 guys in a room, and taking jammed packed vans to the bar/club. It was such a good break...beautiful weather...amazing friends...amazing times. And of course we made random friends with some cool kids from Appalachian State. Everyone was feeling the love. It's the dirty and beautiful air that must live in Myrtle Beach.

Boo yeah

2006-01-26T00:42:00Z

if you don't like working out but want to i highly recommend some sweet pilates exercise. i fuckin love it and my butt is gettin niceeeeeeeee.
so everyones going to club Toxic tonight but i have my 8:30 class tomorow sooooo Im passing.
I wonder if they'll play the song Toxic. It would be a knee slapper.
So things are going well, my classes are very doable..im aiming for maybe 4 A's and B.
LA LA LA LA LA
Hope everyone is movin right along just fine now.

back to schooooooool

2006-01-12T21:56:22Z

things are splendiferous right now. had the best winter break with the great LTG reunion and Matt's suprise visit. i made the dean's list last semester. ANDDDDDDDDDDD i know EXACTLY where i'm living next year and am very pleased with the roommates who are gonna live with me. happy times.
unfortunately, my scuplture class is at 8:30 and is 3 hours long.... AND I'm only allowed 2 UNexcused absences and if I have a third I will automatically get dropped a letter grade. UMMMMM kind of psycho if you ask me. Whatevs. I rule and I will make some mean wood cut outs and some effing sweet clay masterpieces.
ROAR. Hahha anyway, the only thing getting me down right now is a random aching cold. And oh yeah I'm on a diet and I'm actually sticking to it. It's the easiest and greatest frickin diet ever in my opinion. You eat every three hours. What could be better for a (former) lard? I don't know.
Love love,
Me.

Take me back...

2005-11-02T02:45:02Z

college is not so great
people are shady
i am still in love & that is wonderful..i can't even describe

i am oh so confused about being at coastal....

bored

2005-08-22T15:46:08Z

college is fantastic. i love my roommates and things are good except for my random colds and chills.

also,
i'm in love

i'll be here awhile

2005-08-03T17:54:50Z

So i haven't updated pretty much all summer..and it doesnt seem like anyone else has either.
I'm bored with no work and now i have my new laptop (which is a huge 17incher ...mmmmyes) and I have
named it the beast.

New things:
- i'm 18
- i have a tattoo
- currently addicted to laguna beach & the real world (i'm really ashamed)
- going away to college in 9 days

And rest in peace miss. jensen...i guess i can forgive.
i wonder how camp is doing.

Missing you all

long time

2005-06-25T01:51:02Z

Not because you have to, but because you WANT to! Things you enjoy, even when no one around you wants to go out and play. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level? Make a list, post it to your journal and then tag 5 friends and ask them to post it to theirs.

1. cosmo/people/tabloids
2. city confidential & american justice on A&E
3. making annie's
4. driving around with a good mix
5a. talking to a boy
5b. pilates

yeah i know i dont update anymore. i dont think anyone really reads or whatever.
but carenyah gimme a call.

orientation was amazing. i am obsessed with my college.
prom was really fun. although i didnt win prom queen!!!!! WTF
eventhough it took forever to get home.
i love ya all.

look what you did you little jerk

2005-05-31T22:03:19Z

yeah so today i sort of remember i'll be home for the summer.
that really blows my mind in about sixteen different directions.
sometimes im so relieved at how simple things will be and then i remember oh yeah,i won't be spending the summer with some of my absolute best friends.
then shortly after that i want to slap myself for having a pseudo baby sitter's club moment.

yeah and i didn't get the memo that my school is currently stuck in the 80's. people ski like it's aspen in this town.
if you catch my drift.

mike keeps teasing me telling me how good say hello to sunshine is and i'm holding out for when it gets mailed to my house so i can be suprised.
i am so gay.

love you all. & best wishes

ps. first years, YOUR PROFILES MAKE ME WANT TO CHUCK BOWLING BALLS AT MY SCREEN. i love you but yet want to poke you with forks. k, bye

a long time ago

2005-05-22T18:28:31Z

Yeah, I haven't updated in awhile. Not like anyone cares but this is for my own personal pleasure. The weekend was okay, Carrie was away, chilled at alyssa's friday night and ponzo's then krista's then at gaffney's with greg and people last night. It was pretty sweet.

Recap of the week:

- Finch on Monday night at the knitting factory was FUCKING AMAZING. it was the best show i've been to and i just had the best time with mike and john. and they finally played ender. boss.
- star wars III on thursday night. sooooooooo great. i am probably going to see it again because i am a dork.

And as usual...everyone pisses me off.

maybe baby

2005-05-10T22:02:43Z

only about 23 days of school left.
ALYSSA is home!
Still no prom date.
Still no prom bus.

Motherfucking Finch next week!!! Show numero 4.

I miss him. :(

When there's nothing better to do

2005-05-03T22:11:42Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Amber Miller
Birthday:	July 22, 1987
Birthplace:	Santa Cruz, CA
Current Location:	Garden City, NY
Eye Color:	Blue/gray
Hair Color:	Light Brown
Height:	5'0''
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	Irish, Italian, Yugoslavian, English
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Reefs
Your Weaknesses:	Laziness, procrastination, hand bags
Your Fears:	Feet, real life gore and blood, losing someone
Your Perfect Pizza:	Very little sauce, good cheese, mushrooms
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Get in shape.... haha
Your Most Overused Phrase On Instant Messenger:	WTF
First Thought Waking Up:	5 more minutes please
Your Best Physical Feature:	Eyes or hair
Your Bedtime:	Later than 12 these days
Your Most Missed Memory:	Walking around everywhere
Pepsi or Coke:	Diet Coke
McDonalds or Burger King:	Ew...I guess McDonalds
Single or Group Dates:	Single?
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Snapple
Chocolate or Vanilla:	VANILLA
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Coffee
Do You Smoke:	Yeah, too much
Do You Swear:	A whole lot
Do You Sing:	When I'm by myself
Do You Shower Daily:	Pretty much
Have You Been In Love:	Not in the true sense of the word
Do You Want To Go To College:	Heck yes...and I am
Do You Want To Get Married:	Someday yes
Do You Believe In Yourself:	For the most part
Do You Get Motion Sickness:	Nah
Do You Think You Are Attractive:	If you think Cindy Loo Who is cute....
Are You A Health Freak:	I like healthy foods
Do You Get Along With Your Parents:	Pretty much
Do You Like Thunderstorms:	Not if they fuck up my plans
Do You Play An Instrument:	Nope
In The Past Month Have You Drank Alcohol:	Yes
In The Past Month Have Uou Smoked:	Yes
In The Past Month Have You Been On Drugs:	Uh, yeah
In The Past Month Have You Gone On A Date:	Never have
In The Past Month Have You Gone To A Mall:	Yes
In The Past Month Have You Eaten A Box Of Oreos:	Um, no
In The Past Month Have You Eaten Sushi:	Hell yes
In The Past Month Have You Been On Stage:	Nope
In The Past Month Have You Been Dumped:	Nope
In The Past Month Have You Gone Skinny Dipping:	Nope
In The Past Month Have You Stolen Anything:	Nope
Ever Been Drunk:	Haha...yes I believe I have
Ever Been Called A Tease:	Yes, but in a cute way
Ever Been Beaten Up:	There was that cat fight in 7th grade at a CYO basketball game I was in..
Ever Shoplifted:	Unfortunately, yeah
How Do You Want To Die:	When I'm good and ready, no pain
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up:	Something that I can be happy with
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit:	Australia
*In a Guy/Girl..*
Favorite Eye Color:	All eye colors can be beautiful
Favorite Hair Color:	I guess I never go for blondes...
Short Or Long Hair:	Longer hair
Height:	If I said taller than me that would be a joke because I've never met a guy shorter than me
Weight:	Um...just right? Skinnies can be cute haha
Clothing Style:	Anything but guido
Number Of Drugs I Have Taken:	Depends what you consider a drug
Number Of CDs I Own:	Between 30-50 I haven't counted
Number Of Piercings:	Just my ears
Number Of Tattoos:	None yet
Number Of Things In My Past I Regret:	I guess a few, nothing that upsets me now
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

this song will be the death of you

2005-05-02T03:37:48Z

Today was Alyssa's birthday, carrie me and mike and her feasted on chinese at her house. Then me and Carrie got bored and went to the movies yet again, we saw Sin City but it got old in 25 minutes so we left and got Checkers.

This weekend was great. Bamboozle was great. Even though me and Cren didn't stay for Thrice (which would have had us ending up home around 5 in the morning), I was definately satisfied for the reason I came. Finch just blows me away everytime. They actually played old songs too which was nice.

just read carrena's entry to get the full idea.

are you okay?

2005-04-25T03:19:55Z

Got home early today from a wonderful FU weekend. Me and Carrie did not get lost and had fun listening to a mix from 2001.

It was a splendiforous weekend of drinking and way too many funny things. Honestly I want to write them down but I think I could be crossing the line.
Other things made it even more special.

Alyssa licked my face again. Carrie is obsessed with the Mass Pike. I can't wait to finish high school.

"you are so fucking drunk"

number 9

2005-04-20T01:58:28Z

Megg051: she is no longer osama....shes now rabi carren
riverfeniXAngel: carenakah mchughwitz
tipsy sprit: hahahaha

once the warm weather comes even bad days are good. and they get even better with good conversations. that is my only simple thought.

happy birthday :-)

2005-04-18T02:27:51Z

This weekend was not too great. All I do is sleep. I have 0 energy and I can't even make it through 2 periods of school. I'm always counting down the days until next week, next month, it's like living every day for the next. It really is strange.

Friday I went to Greg's new house in westbury to chill. It was nice and low key. I watched the guys play Halo. I enjoyed the high life.

Saturday I started off the night at Lora's drinking and laughing our asses off while watching paris hilton attempting to sing on some show. I went to another gathering by myself but most of my friends were there so it all went smoothly. I took a shot of really cheap vodka and watched someone totally walk into a screen door. I also enjoyed a long and lovely conversation with a lovely person. It hit the spot.

Next weekend will be spectacular. Me and Curr are visiting Alyssa at FU!!!!

come out come out wherever you are

2005-04-12T19:21:57Z

I drove today for the first time in a week and I was a little nervous. I even avoided driving to the bank after school to cash my paycheck because I honestly didn't trust myself to drive another 10 minutes out of the way. I miss my car.

Today my grandma wants me to go to the city with her to find a prom dress. She wants me to go more than I do. I hope I find something good so I can look good by myself. Maybe something white or pink. Betsy Johnson best not dissapoint me.

I walked around today all goofy happy. Even if it was a bad day I don't think it would've changed that. I hope this feeling is mutual.

PS I had such a hot 3 way call last night with osama conroy and osama mchugh.

itssssallllthetimmeeewhoahhh

2005-04-09T16:39:36Z

i enjoyed my first power hour last night and i was pretty proud of only missing maybe 4 shots total. mike made a wonderful cd and was the proud only guy at alyssa's as we pregamed. megan's friend becca game, which was nice because i like her the most out of megan's friends. alyssa, mike, carrie, pinski, becca, megan, and i went to image after and it was terrible as expected. no one from our school so we left after a little while and hung out at krista's. i got my ass slapped many times so now it's numb. i woke up thinking i was blind but at least it wasn't the time when i woke up and i thought i had died and was in heaven.

my car is officially fixable although the insurance company is very likely to blame everything on me. which sucks big time but at least i don't have to replace LaFawnduh. she is a trooper.

oh yeah i forgot to say how much fun i had at carenya's in dc last week. i had THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS much fun. especially at the ethnic diversity night celebration, by that i mean a party that was 3 parts white guys, maybe 10 parts white gurls and the rest were towel heads and nates. SO FUN! do it again cren!!!

ps i know your reading this...SO STOP IT MKAY!!!

JUST KIDDING ! :-*)

tots

2005-04-08T02:34:22Z

You are Tater Tots. Go get your own!!

Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

what the hell? tater tots? oh well

forgive me, forgive me not

2005-04-06T01:45:25Z

I got into another car accident. Fuck my life.

I am pretty much tongue tied so I'll put it out plain and simple:

I don't understand cars. I don't understand boys.

I wish I could take your pain away. But I caused it. So here for once I am the problem.

for it all

2005-03-30T02:44:14Z

to anyone who replied to my thing before... i thank you. individual comments will come later. when i clear my head.

Today the weather was nicer and it made me smile. And songs reminded me of better times. I guess today was a better day. That is all.

I miss many of you.

i have nothing to say

2005-03-26T16:58:04Z

I came to the realization that I will never be a part of camp again. And I don't want to be. Good riddance, and everybody who still believes in it -- you don't know shit. Oh wait a minute -- you probably wasn't treated like a piece of shit like I was. Well, I guess there is nothing left for me. No goodbyes, no tears, no appreciation, and most of all no love. That place taught me one thing when I was young and I know it turned me into a stronger person. But it also taught me another thing, you can't always rely on other people, friends will make big mistakes, friends will hurt you, you can't stay young forever, and you don't always get back what you give. I have a naive hope that this summer there will be something missing without me. A small glance around and people will notice that I'm gone. In all reality no one will probably know the difference. I put my heart and soul into that place. I devoted 9 whole summers of my life there. I have never felt so rejected in my whole entire life, and I've faced plenty of rejection. So exuse my bitterness but if you're going back next year...you can take a hint of how I feel. Fuck Wa-Klo -- rather it should change it's name and then fuck it because it is certainly not the same anymore.

That felt good.

I can't wait for next week, April 29, May 16, and June 7.

I hate this empty feeling, however.

for what it's worth

2005-03-22T16:34:50Z

In line I long to be
Inside your company
Good things are coming
I know they always have
In time, a far away place that we can go
I know we will someday
On our own, until then I will lay inside
Rest on a rising tide
Don’t be so selfless
I’ll wait on the same lines as you
Can’t be so helpless
Good things are coming our way
Good things are coming, I’ll wait
In line, I long to be
Inside your company
Maybe you know
We’ll go wherever you wanted to
I’m through wishing I was somewhere else
Drive along to escape
Good things are coming
Don’t be so selfless
I’ll wait on the same lines as you
Can’t be so helpless
Good things are coming our way
Good things are coming, I’ll wait
Drive along to our escape

ice ice baby

2005-03-16T17:19:31Z

So last night we darling Carrie's 19th birthday, kind of scary she's already 19. I went out to dinner with her family, but the dinner made me sick. And right now I'm already dying- I have a horrible cough and I'm all stuffed up, it's this stupid fucking weather and I'm smoking too much. We went to Image & Bogarts and both places were pretty fucking dead. And after what really went on last night, I think I have some form of paranoia and a new irrational fear. I wasn't really that drunk but I was so close to bursting out in tears. I felt like I'd lost another part of myself. The part you can't really get back. I still want what I can't have, at least that's not unusual.

Cocktail dreams fill up my glass.

fucking sketchy

2005-03-12T17:09:21Z

I have no concept of money. In one day I spent over $100 and I didn't even realize it. There goes the paycheck I was so looking forward to. I need to be more careful with my money. I need to stop going to shitty bars where I have to let disgusting drunk guys buy me beers and ask like it'll be the end of their world if I don't give them my number. And then dealing with even more sketchy guys. And last night was probably the first night I realized that Image is just getting filled up with more and more of the biggest faggits in my grade because just about anyone can get in. That place is just a pile of shit. And yeah it snowed again last night, because it really hasn't snowed enough. I can't wait to get the hell out of long island, to be free from this shitty weather and fucking trashy as hell people. Fuck everything-- last night 75% sucked.